I hate being in the place I’m at right now.
I can’t really expound.
The longing is just so great that sometimes I feel it will eat me up. But being here also reminds me about my weaknesses, it reminds me that no matter how hard I try and will for something to happen, it will not, that no matter how perfectly I do things I can’t prevent something from happening.
Being here reminds me of how small I am.But I am grateful to be here. Because it’s in times like this, when I realize how small and weak I am that I am also able to see clearly how great and strong God is and how it’s when I’m at my smallest that I recognize how big God’s hand is and how I fit right in it.
This song by Tim Hughes called “Everything” is my song of the moment. It’s a reminder that wherever I am in my life, one thing remains and that is the fact that God is my everything.
EVERYTHING by Tim Hughes
God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping
God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting
God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me
the hope of glory
You are everything
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me
the hope of glory
Be my everything
